As much as it is sometimes good to simply 'get away' it is also so very good to come home. I have travelled a little. Some journeys were longer than others, and whatever the welcome 'out there' I was always glad to be home. Long journeys lasting longer than two weeks and hiraeth would surface and grow until I felt as if I would suffer if I did not find my way home again soon. I wonder if I could ever emigrate to a foreign land, although I did come very close to doing just that in
2000 - having said that, it was to be for four years maximum. Canada is the closest I have come to feeling 'in the right place', and to this day I feel I have left a piece of my heart there. On my 'bucket list' is
a wish to return to Canada one day and to visit places and see people I have kept close and wrapped up in my very soul to this day.

I have had the privillege to meet some wonderful goodhearts (as I like to call them), and indeed I owe a great deal of my learning to many of them. Not all journeys have been simply visits to other lands, often they have included inner journeys, or spiritual paths I have followed, encountering profound wisdom from elders that I wish the world would not ignore. Anyway it is that time of year when my mind turns to them, and I make a note to buy those welsh woollen socks and a few warm things to send for winter solstice.

As I am feeling somewhat overloaded with information these days, I am
reluctant to start writing about worldly things. At the moment I feel weary with talk about wars, conspiracies, and all those things that are important to understand. As always I am reminded that it is time to
withdraw a little and return for balance with my spiritual world. I have been 'out' in the world for quite some time (as happens) and it is time to reflect, and start applying my spiritual mind to things. Balance is essential to dealing with the world and what is happening.
It may well be that this journey to my spiritual teachers will simply be a silent experience, unshared in words, but experienced. It may well be that I have something else to learn, but I do know that it is time to
balance up the material world and the spiritual world. Too much of one and not enough of the other is not good balance :)

While I ponder on my next line I will go boil the kettle and find the cookie tin (after being away am wondering if I left any? - hope Spa is still open if not!) brb....
Just a thought - (excuse me while I munch away - yes found a cookie!
If life was like a cookie how would it be? Would we all agree it was a 'good' cookie? Would some people complain that it didn't have enough of this or that, or would some say they don't like cookies at all - there'd be vegans and dieters and all sorts. Cookies taste delicious to me - heaven with a cuppa. Even something that tastes good can be a
bone of contention in life (I think). Is there a cookie that could appeal to everyone? Now the next thing to ask is this - are cookies good for us? I mean take out the butter and the sugar what's left?
The good stuff? hmmm... If life is like a cookie do we have to take out all the nice stuff to be well and healthy and happy? Are we capable for being happy without the sugar and the butter that makes them so delicious? What would be good for us then?

Can the human race be happy? Take a way wars, struggle, and so on - can we live in Utopia? Would cookie heaven be enough? Duggh... I need to
get a life roflmao!

Having been away for eight days, this old terraced house is icy cold, although I have had the heating on for a few hours now. I look at my new curtains trying to like them, but the truth is I do not like curtains and they are adorning my window now because I thought they would make this room a little warmer. I have my warm bootie slippers on and pjs/dressingown and am tempted to put my gloves on! Am getting to look like some hermit with candles burning, some incense, and books everywhere, teetering on the edge of side tables, littering a corner of my lounge, one or two in the kitchen and well a trail of them leading to the bathroom. Eight days of spam mail has been thrown in disgust into
my now familiar blue bag for recycling, and one or two addressed to people who do not and never have lived here!! I mumble "NO! I don't want a Boche whatever, AND NO I DON'T WANT BLOODY INSURANCE!" Sigh...
other mail can wait - bills! :(

My little dog has been staying with a friend and I have missed her so much! Tomorrow I go to get her, and I will have to brace myself against a wall or sit down as she comes tearing around the corner like a guided missile!! :) She is a good teacher - she teaches me that I have a lot of work to do on loving unconditionally. Her qualities are enviable - she is quiet when I am not too well, rests beside me when I have a need to just 'be', never complains when her food is late, does not bear a grudge when I'm grumpy because of a night of pain, and always shows me that I am loved :) I have a lot to learn from her - and sometimes when she is sleeping and so tiny - I marvel at this living being that she is, breathing away softly on my lap, or at other times flat on her back and snoring like a bull!! (not that I've every heard a bull snore but it is very loud!).Sasha has everything pink - pink bag to carry her in with a bling heart on it, pink blanket, pink toweling coat to put on after she's had a bath and a new pink cushion for her bed. The first thing she will do when she gets home is go to each of her things, including her toys - just to make sure they are all there :) Love her!

Anyway enough of my ramblings - am going to do an hour meditation, some Reiki (which I have neglected of late) and start the journey inside.

Love and light to all you goodhearts out there ... it is good to be home:)

xx